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Friday, 28 September 2012

My heart belongs to...


Love is what makes two people sit in the middle of a bench when there's plenty of room at both ends.
Loves means trust, share, tolerance and friendship. Do you know that?

Today, I'm not going to discuss about marriage (I'm not married yet-- I'm still too young -, so I don't know so much about marriage life-- even though I'm writing about it in my fiction), but I'm going to touch about love.
Yep~! L.O.V.E. One of the most common words in the world. Everyone knows it. Even an innocent child knows what is LOVE.

However, do people really understand what is love?

Most people mistaken it as sacrifice. Yes, they do say that 'I love him because he's the only one who can bring me happiness! And he keeps my heart. Yes, I'm soooo not going to leave him!' Well, I have to say that those people can talk the talk, but they can't walk the walk. In the end, the guy leaves her and she suffers. Pfft...

Personally, I think love is too abstract. I don't know how to describe it. Not exactly, that's it. All I know is when I hear his laughter, my face creases into a broad smile. I open myself, let out all my emotion trapped inside my heart when he asks me, "Are you okay?" I willingly listen to him when he tells me a story. I love teasing him, making him jealous (but not too much). I love to be embraced by his beautiful dark eyes. And I like him because he makes me love him.

To make it simple, love make me feel safe, and yet vulnerable, too.

Why I said vulnerable too?

Because when I fall for him, I let him keep my heart. And I'm afraid he will crush it.

However, he gave back half of my heart and gave me half of his heart too. (Not literally)

One day, he asked me, "What would you do when our relationship is not working?"

I asked him, "Why you ask such a thing?"

"Pure curiosity. I'm afraid if fate is too cruel and makes us separate forever"

"You mean death"

He didn't answer, which I took it as 'yes'.

"You know, you take it too serious, dude" I just brushed off the topic. He remained silent for awhile before replying.

"If I die early, then I let you find another guy better than me"

I was so shocked back then. Then, I realized why he gave back half of my heart and let me keep half of his heart.

Because he doesn't want me to suffer if death really do us part.
He doesn't want me to be a soulless soul, wandering around without my heart.
He wants me to be happy even if he's not here anymore.

And, yes, I fall for him again and again because of that.

I'm not saying that he's a romantic guy or a romeo (in fact, he's hopeless about romantic stuff!).

But, can someone really say to the person that he/she loves that 'honey, you can find someone else if our relationship is not working.'

Probability to say it= 0.000000000000000001 (but, there are people out there that really can say it-- respect!)

It's a fact! Many people stalk their partner, control their partner and even worst, they abuse their partner!

Believe or not, according to to the U.S. Department of Justice, 49 % of nearly 3.5 million violent crimes committed against family members between 1998 and 2002 were committed against spouse.


Why this is happening? It's because they want to conquer the partner's whole heart.

Please, stop!

Protect your beloved, care your beloved and love your beloved.
 
And those people who let your partner to keep your whole heart, take the half back and keep his/her! With this, both of you won't hurt each other. 

Because love means sharing, protection and tolerance.  

Ja ne~


1/2 of your heart + 1/2 of his/her heart = 1 heart


P/S: Sorry because of the bad context. I just realize that I almost went out of the context. First time~

Because of him

It's been ages I don't post anything in my blog (Hey, can't blame me; I was very busy!) So many things had happened in my life back then.

I went back to my hometown and celebrated Hari Raya Aidilfitri. My village is a rural area, so I could not use Internet at all. And when I had announced about it to my fanfic readers, they were like, "Nooo!!! I'm dying wanting to read you fiction!!!" Hahahahaha... Seriously, reading their reviews made me smile like an idiot for the whole day.

It's a chocolate!! So cute!!!

My cousin and his family

At  Kabong (who knows where is it???)

My uncle's house! Nice design!!


I thought I won't see this game anymore... and yet, POOF! It's in my hand!



My only queen of heart and her granddaughter



PEACE!!!


She's so adorable. Can't I hug her?



Sometimes my brain suddenly went crazy. I started making a gift for my beloved one. A teddy bear for him! I did it myself! (I mean, the decoration, not the teddy bear-- I suck at sewing!) And I'm really proud of myself! (Che!)





And a few weeks after Hari Raya, my beloved gave me a ring! (FINALLY!!!!) I was really happy!!! Felt like floating in the clouds!!! Walaoweyh! And it's so beautiful!!! So, I'm officially his girlfriend!!! Yay!!!!!!! (Sorry, can't upload the picture here-- it's confidential!!)

Yep~! So many had happened. Smile, tears, laughter... I, once, hated my life, my current path. But, because of him, I've changed. Now, I'm be able to laugh again, to smile like before. I won't let myself to regret the path that my parents have chosen for me. I know, it's not my dream, but, hey, just face it! It's your destiny! If it wasn't because of my parents wanted me to study here, I won't be able to meet him. Now, I just want to strive for success. Because if it's really my fate to not be able to pass, then, I won't have any regrets anymore. Because I know I've tried! The next exam's wave is coming in one month! So, prepare yourself!!!!!!!!





Ja ne~



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