I just don't know...

He's my world. He is my everything. The words escaped from his lips  keep lingering in my mind. The time that we spent together keep replaying in my mind. My heart is pounding quickly because of him. The way he's looking at me makes my red blood cells rush onto my face. His smile makes my day. His jokes are my medicine. I love everything about him.

He owns me...

However,

I'm scared. I never let him completely opens my heart. I lock my heart. Let a forest of sharp thorn roses grows wildly. Surrounding my heart.

I run when he tries to catch me. Just like a spoil cat. Loves to be accompanied, but runs when they try to touch. Just like a bird. Flying closer with they lend their hand, and flying away when they try to catch.

Am I an ungrateful person? Making him mine but still running away? Making him jealous but keep him inside my cage? Making his world becomes mine but still demanding for a freedom?

I want to! I want to be inside his cage! I really do. But, I'm scared. And I don't know how. I don't know how to express it. I don't know how should I say it clearly!! I don't know!!!